Enough is enough.

I think maybe in a way I've held onto parts of my past (and the people in it), not really wanting to believe that all those years were all for naught. However, it seems to be that this is the case. Very few people from "the before time" keep in contact with me, if you can even call it "contact". Mostly its the random Facebook tag and that's all. And I'm not sure if its true, but it felt like the ones who were on my Facebook page were there to spy and gather gossip material. A few unceremoniously de-friended me, but a few stuck around (which seemed rather odd considering they never actually spoke to me). I don't think I would have such a negative opinion of them (or the situation) if there had actually been REAL contact going on but there wasn't. So, I'm left to speculate. Yet, it seems that even this small group that kept hanging around, for whatever reason, was really keeping me from fully moving on, and at the same time still had the power to hurt me with their indifference to my life and happiness and MY attempts to reach out for some kind of contact with them. This morning, I've just had enough. I'm finally putting my foot down and ridding myself of all of this entirely. I've made my share of mistakes, and I feel that I've punished myself enough for them. Don't I deserve happiness too? I never wished any of them any ill-will (and I still don't) but I don't know if the feelings are mutual. I refuse to let them hurt me any more. It's time for me to put the past where it belongs and finally, completely move on with my life. My life will change forever in January when Cadence is born, and he is truly all that matters now. So, a final farewell to my past and those in it. I wish them happiness, and am ready to fully embrace mine now.